These aren’t exactly things that go well together. Social expectation is that the holidays are a time to be happy. My family has never been big on the holidays, even as early as my teens it sort of ceased to be the usual thought of X-Mas and was mostly just about our family sharing a meal.
I’ve stopped trying to seem happy for happiness’ sake this season. No more faces, no more doing things for people so that I appear to be in the holiday mood. It’s me raw and unfiltered. I don’t believe everyone appreciates that, but then again I’m not so much into caring about what folks think about my mood and depression. They can either accept it or chose to move on.
The news is pretty brutal these days and while I understand most folks just want something positive to believe in, or a sense of brotherhood and camaraderie for me I’ve chosen to focus on being who I am, good or bad.
