It’s not often that I think back about too many of the unfinished projects I’ve had but one stuck out with me. Like a lot of folks, the idea of a 365 photo a day project was interesting but it wasn’t until I started taking a few that I realized my life was pretty isolated. It wasn’t that there weren’t people in my life. \u00a0There was my now ex-wife, family, our dog. \u00a0No, it was more a self imposed isolation, or perhaps isolation of heart would be a more apt description.<\/p>\n
Hadn’t really thought about how ever day, every shot started to remind me that my days were a loop. \u00a0When Monday, and Saturday all look and feel the same you start to question what’s the point to the things you do. Depression creeps into your life in strange and painful ways and unfortunately that project, left incomplete by likely 200 days was a subtle peek at my depression that I recognized too late. \u00a0Hindsight is 20-20 though and here I am now looking back on that project and seeing not my former artistic eye but a painful trail of things not so positive.<\/p>\n
I doubt I’ll ever get into projects like that again, ones drive by popularity and trends. I used the phrase “my heart’s just not in it” a lot towards the end of my marriage. Here on out I need to try to find those things that my heart is in. \u00a0Even if the projects are painful, long and never get seen.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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