{"id":285,"date":"2016-11-01T08:20:42","date_gmt":"2016-11-01T18:20:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/vraxx.com\/blog\/?p=285"},"modified":"2016-11-01T08:20:42","modified_gmt":"2016-11-01T18:20:42","slug":"post-halloween-thoughts","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/vraxx.com\/blog\/2016\/11\/01\/post-halloween-thoughts\/","title":{"rendered":"Post-Halloween Thoughts"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m grateful that the condo I live in has a strict policy of only allowing trick or treaters in the lobby area. As a result all the residents simply donate to a bigger collection of candy downstairs.<\/p>\n<p>The relative silence and time away from the Halloween festivities made me think about what I&#8217;d even want to be. The reality is the costume that would make the most sense is someone who isn&#8217;t battling depression.<\/p>\n<p>Never had much in the way of holiday spirit, used to go along with it till things were over and I could resume my usual flatline moods. It&#8217;s difficult to be happy at events when you feel like at any moment you&#8217;re going to crawl out of your skin. It&#8217;s irrational certainly but there&#8217;s no accounting for the sense of unease and anxiety that permeates in social situations for me. I push through as is needed or expected by cultural norms but sometimes I feel like every time I have to fake it to survive I lose a little something in the process. Hopefully I can gradually reclaim what I&#8217;ve lost, but for now I think it&#8217;s more an attrition phase than a rebuilding one.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m grateful that the condo I live in has a strict policy of only allowing trick or treaters in the lobby area. As a result all the residents simply donate to a bigger collection of candy downstairs. The relative silence and time away from the Halloween festivities made me think about what I&#8217;d even want &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/vraxx.com\/blog\/2016\/11\/01\/post-halloween-thoughts\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;Post-Halloween Thoughts&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[13,2],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-285","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-blog-slice","category-depression"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p7PG4O-4B","jetpack-related-posts":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/vraxx.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/285","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/vraxx.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/vraxx.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/vraxx.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/vraxx.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=285"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/vraxx.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/285\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":286,"href":"http:\/\/vraxx.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/285\/revisions\/286"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/vraxx.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=285"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/vraxx.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=285"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/vraxx.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=285"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}